shift shift shift

I think its time to properly apologize. 
But how? 

  Yesssssssssss..

In approximately 6 days i will be driving this very route while having my virgin road trip experience overseas. 
How very very exciting. 

;D

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say 

Never again no
No never again 

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go 

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow 

Never again no
No never again 

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again 

this is just not a good time to be emo. 

And i think that God's preparing me for a new season again. Learning more lessons everyday. 
Life's getting more uncomfortable than ever and i think God's trying to nudge me out of this comfort zone....again.
Im really wondering what exactly is He preparing me for because when i start feeling uncomfortable, that's when he uses me the mightiest. What an irony, really something that i cannot fathom. 

I never knew i could feel so devastated over this.

It's like when you worked so hard for something, and then just because of a silly mistake and oversight on your part, you have to retake it. Sigh

It's been a good day,

kick-ass ramen,glasses of margaritas, bottles of stella and asahi.

What a way to round off the end of spring semester.
It has truly been an awesome semester with awesome lecturers and awesome company. 
With the burden of assignments finally off my shoulders, i can now concentrate on acing the final 3 exams on next mon, wed and fri before i prepare to fly off to Melbourne and Tasmania. Im looking forward to an amazing trip with my great hockey palzzz. 

Cheers to a really inspiring semester

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It is time to dream again with God. 

You know what i fear the most?

Falling out of love with God. 

hurting him like how i have been doing the past 10 years of my life, and now that the relationship is restored once more, I really cannot imagine how would life would be like without Him. It's just unfathomable. 

But like everything else, love is a conscious choice at the end of the day. 

I've since found out that i can be quite the girl sometimes. 
I've always assumed that i had more male than female traits
So what if one is strong headed, rational and a risk-taker? 
At the end of the day, the heart and emotions are quintessentially female. 

The world as I see it, is a remarkable place 
A beautiful house in a forest, of stars in outer space. 
From a birds eye view, I can see it has a well-rounded personality 
From a birds eye view, I can see we are family.
It's not hard for me to love you 
Hard for me to love you 
No it's not a difficult thing. 
It's not hard for me to love you 
Hard for me to love you
Because you are the world to me.
Yeah the world as I see it, is a remarkable place
Every man makes a difference
And every mothers child is a saint 
From a birds eye view I can see, we are spiralling down in gravity 
From a birds eye view I can see, you are just like me.
It's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
No it's not a difficult thing.
It's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
Unconditionally.
No it's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
No it's not a difficult thing.
It's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
Because you are the world to me.

You are the mountain, you are the rock
You are the cord and you're the spark 
You are the eagle, you are the lark 
You are the world and you're remarkable
You're the ocean eating the shore 
You are the calm inside the storm 
You're every emotion, you can endure 
You are the world, the world is yours.
(It's not hard for me to love you Hard for me to love you 
No it's not a difficult thing. It's not hard for me to love you Hard for me to love you Unconditionally)
No it's not hard for me to love you 
Hard for me to love you No it's not a difficult thing. 
It's not hard for me to love you Hard for me to love you 
Unconditionally.
No it's not hard for me to love you Hard for me to love you 
No it's not a difficult thing. It's not hard for me to love you Hard for me to love you Because you are the world to me.
Yeah the world as I see it, is a remarkable place